So it all started when I went to crawl under the secretary’s desk at work to fix her computer and my pants SPLIT WIDE OPEN. It made a hole big enough to out my head through (see photo). Was I embarrassed? Slightly. But more importantly I was freaked out because I thought I had gained weight. After all this running and watching what I eat how could I possibly be gaining weight. I checked my measurements when I got home. No change since June. WHEW!!! Also,on my drive home after a very long day, my neck and back started having spasms. Out of the clear blue sky I couldn’t turn my head to the left (boy did that make my drive home interesting).
As I thought about it more I realized that I am doing a big ‘no-no’. I run around all the time making sure that everyone else is ok. That includes my family, my boss, my editors, my students, my girlfriends, etc. I rarely make time for myself. I can’t tell you the last time I just sat around and did absolutely nothing or went shopping for clothes for me (the pants are about five years old and, upon closer inspection, very worn out). Clearly I need to make the time to shop for me and relax more. The neck thing wasn’t a fluke. It was stress and I know it. Something’s gotta give but I can’t see what that will be right now. I have some specific goals in mind and I gotta work hard to get them. I can’t stop until I’ve reached them. But I can take a mental health break and buy some pants that are strong enough to hang with this ambitious Urban Bushwoman. Retail therapy here I come.